Its amazing how much can change within 24 hours eh?
This morning, i was doing my usual stuffs, wore my number 4 and went to Nee soon camp for work. Although i was supposed to go SAFTI MI to inspect their medical center, i blatantly told my in-charge that i dont wanna go cause im still sick.
So only left me and one fella in the office. Took a nap. Phone rang. Alice called and informed that ah gong had passed away.
Immediately had to leave the office. Took compassionate leaves. Which was really tedious, had to find so many people for approval. 3 days of compassionate leaves.
So i took leaves on monday and friday,which was planned a long time ago and now i had 3 extras, from tuesday to thursday. I practically no need to work lor. Not that i enjoy my work anyway.
I think NS made me a very down person.
Anyway, came home changed, and immediately went to TTSH but alice told me to go ah ma's house and when i reached i still wasnt that sad yet, probably the message hasnt sink in.
After a few hours when i saw the body and the coffin, everyone started crying and i couldnt help but like, cry as well. omg i also have no idea what am i crying for.
The cremation is on saturday. confirm cry again.
GR and J is coming on thursday, thank you very much.
that aside, I have a uncle, he is my oldest uncle.
Throughout the entire time when my grandfather was sick and seeking treatment. he didnt bother to fork out a single cent, he is on bad terms with almost everyone in the family. including my father, my uncle and my mom's uncle.
of course there are quarrels la.
aiya basically he doesnt give shits abt the family la. Just today, he came to ah ma 's house and then talk and talk about stuffs that nobody cares to my grand mother and guess what the fuck he said?
"we should celebrate after the funeral, because ah gong passed away at age 82"
When i heard it, i assume he was joking. because it was too insensitive pass off as a real comment. like, seriously, who the fuck will say that?
then he has to repeat it several times and even asked me for my opinion, i was totally at a loss of words lor. i can only go "er... okay"
like, WTF maximum.
sighs, family drama.
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Sad things aside, im trying to be more positive.
So i will make an attempt to blog stuffs that are cheerful/uplifting/positive everyday. it could be a few sentences, or a paragraph, whatever!
starting from today?
1) GR asked me about my bday and im gonna celebrate it most prob on friday! yay
2) I told Elaine (nicolette) about something regarding myself, and she is damn happy for me. she literally go
ÖMG DAYVID IM SO PROUD OF YOU She is eff-ing funny. her sms-es are mostly funny.
she made a life-altering decision and although probably half the world will ask her not to (closed minded hippies), im 100% supportive of her man!
3) took a not bad candid shot of myself (not self cam whore ar!!) and i like it :)
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Saw some really really good looking people with awesome body today. Hahaha
they shouldnt be allowed to exist in this world man, totally makes me feel inferior and insecure about myself. Its a harsh planet!
then again, they are probably just as insecure as any of us.
Nicolette (omg i have 2 friends named nic now its so confusing!) smsed me asking whether i watched miss universe and i replied no but i read it on perezhilton abt how trainwreaky Heidi Montag is by trying to do a Britney.
She (Nic, not heidi) was complaining about how unfair it is that all these models are, long legs, bronzy skin etc etc etc.
I said
"life's unfair!" her reply
"then im gonna be my own god and make it fair"woohoo, i love that attitude man.
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Update on my life nowadays: Friends are awesome, MJ are also not bad, Wan zi is my favourite tiles in the set now. Got an LG phone at 200 bucks, not touch screen cos i hate touch screen phones.
Pictures will be up, most probably next week.
Recently im like a pregnant women, i keep craving for food. according to GR this is better than not knowing what to eat for lunch. Im craving for mee siam, hard boiled eggs, sushi, rice balls. sighs
Saw a damn shiny adidas originals jacket at pacific plaza, $149. Picture will be up soon as well. SHOULD I BUY OR NOT!!!
not much occasion to wear it though, its damn shiny.
i like it i like it i like it...
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I also come to realised i dislike one thing: closed minded people who impose their closed minded-ness on others. damn annoying.
I dont like people who go like
"oh you should not go have a tattoo* because you will regret it, i speak from experience**"*can replace with any decision, esp life altering ones. ie: Plastic surgery etc
** with or without this line.
Not that im going for tattoo-ing or plastic surgery, at least for now.
this kinda people are the worse sort i guess, just because they regret it doesnt mean I will regret it. Maybe i will, at least its my choice im regretting.
Im doing something very very bad for my mental health and GR says as long as im happy doing it then i should keep on doing it until a stage whereby im sick of it already. But the sooner i stop the better i will be.
so, the ultimate, and the classic line:
How can it be wrong when it feels so right? life has its poetry isnt it?
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Addicted to FIRE BURING by Sean Kingston and GOOD GIRL GO BAD by Cobra Spaceship and Leighton Meester. fucking good. i keep listening it on loop.